Walk in light and walk light

The theme of April :- walking in light (sunshine)

我們若在光明中行，如同神在光明中，就彼此相交，他兒子耶穌的血也洗淨我們一切的罪。   約翰一書 1:7

It was really challenging in April. 

Yes, repentance and hurt sucked in my life that also provokes lots of turmoil inside me and wanted a relief and a burst.

I knelt and prayed for a relief with His strength. 

Family

I feel unloved in my family as my girls seem to forget to speak my love language right; or perhaps not even care or bother or attempt to speak it.  L an overthought !!! At times!  Are they self-seeking?  Are they ungrateful for a giving mom (I claim myself as a GIVING mom!)? 

Pray :- Disappointment won’t seize me!  I count my blessings instead and stay in JOYful mode always.  Pray for His presence and my deep conviction despite the emotional turmoil at times. 我一生一世必有恩惠慈愛隨著我，我且要住在耶和華的殿宇直到永遠。

Work

I feel defeated in my job even though I tried my best to prepare the so-called agency intro within a partnership network for my Big Boss.  But it turned out to be a mess and this even triggered a resignation of an AD.  I have to rethink what my mission here, in my workplaceJ so as to regain my joy and happiness.  What lasts longer or even forever in my workplace?  Who is my BIG BOSS?  Is my talent really used and honoured? 

Pray :- Disappointment won’t seize me!  I count my blessings instead and stay in JOYful mode always.  Pray for His presence and my deep conviction despite the emotional turmoil at times. 我一生一世必有恩惠慈愛隨著我，我且要住在耶和華的殿宇直到永遠。

人在做，天在看。要改變別人，先改變自己。Keep it up as God is always with me to fight and strive!

The joy of God is my strength.

Spiritual Family

I designed an initiative “Collateral Beauty (最美麗的安排)” within my bt in a bid to foster the relationship with God for each of the sisters and of course to better understand each other.

A retreat was designed from 28 to 30 Apr at ZS as a collateral beauty arrangement for Connie!  Double meaning! For sure, double blessings.  In between, a sister refused to join after some time as she thought she was not feeling loved…L We talked, we prayed, we walked, we listened… and I let go.  After all, the theme of the retreat : 我神與我.  As I believe whatever or wherever it is, challenges are time we dig our faith in God deeper and deeper with His word and work inside myself.  Embracing this belief, I walk in silence, no groan, no moan and grasping His hand. 

In ZS, I traced back the trips I ever visited in a decade or more; with different sisters and even the next generation.  We played, we prayed, we ate, we laughed, we enjoyed every precious moment…and we coloured the hub of spiritual tank from 2006?

Pray:- To forgive; as you have been forgiven!  Meditate with the meaning and symbolic presentation of the CROSS : a vertical line – the capstone (GOD & me) and then the horizontal line – relationship with other disciples and people (I love you as Jesus loves me! 我用耶穌的愛來愛你。